I lost my job today.
A normal Wednesday filled with IT service calls, fighting off computer viruses, and updating software came to a screeching halt with one conversation.
My boss walked into my office, closed the door, and said "Thank you for your service these past 2 months, but we have gone with another candidate for the permanent position."
I had known this was a possibility.
It is a temporary job.
Since day one, I knew this could happen.
But I never ever thought that it would.
And in the instance that she uttered those words to me, I felt like the floor had disappeared from under my feet. I felt like I was falling, grasping for any form of stability, anything to hang on to. So many things ran through my mind. So many fears. So many insecurities. I was scared and I felt alone and there wasn't anything that I could do about it.
I still can't do anything about it.
I lost my job today.
God has brought me through worse situations than this. And in the past 18 months. He, only in His power and sovereignty, kept me securely in His hands through unemployment, food stamps, a devastating car wreck, medical and hospital bills, deep depression, anxiety attacks, and family issues.
I leaned on community today.
After all the mess that I have been thought in life, I never walked in community through the mess. I always attempted to handle everything on my own.
But this time, community was, and still is, all that I have.
When I got the news that I lost my job, I immediately informed my community. My best friends, my LifeGroup leaders, my family, all of them got the news within minutes.
And all of them surrounded me with love.
All of them surrounded me with encouragement.
All of them told me that it would all be okay.
My community pointed me to Jesus, something that I am not used to seeing.
I lived a life in messes that I always felt that I needed to clean up. One's that I felt that I had to fix.
But, I can't fix this.
It is not my job to fix this.
Only Jesus can fix this.
Something beautiful happens when community rallies around you. It's like a safety net for those that are free-falling. It's like a comfortable blanket wrapping around you while you're in the cold.
As I walk through this valley, as I wade through the unknown, I know that I have my community to catch me, and my God to love and lead me.
My God is Good.
He promised good.
He turned everything around for good.
Nothing is too difficult for Him.
Nothing is impossible.
And as long as I have Jesus.
And my community.
And my friends and family.
It is well, with me.
I lost my job today.
And I'll be okay.
A normal Wednesday filled with IT service calls, fighting off computer viruses, and updating software came to a screeching halt with one conversation.
My boss walked into my office, closed the door, and said "Thank you for your service these past 2 months, but we have gone with another candidate for the permanent position."
I had known this was a possibility.
It is a temporary job.
Since day one, I knew this could happen.
But I never ever thought that it would.
And in the instance that she uttered those words to me, I felt like the floor had disappeared from under my feet. I felt like I was falling, grasping for any form of stability, anything to hang on to. So many things ran through my mind. So many fears. So many insecurities. I was scared and I felt alone and there wasn't anything that I could do about it.
I still can't do anything about it.
I lost my job today.
God has brought me through worse situations than this. And in the past 18 months. He, only in His power and sovereignty, kept me securely in His hands through unemployment, food stamps, a devastating car wreck, medical and hospital bills, deep depression, anxiety attacks, and family issues.
I leaned on community today.
After all the mess that I have been thought in life, I never walked in community through the mess. I always attempted to handle everything on my own.
But this time, community was, and still is, all that I have.
When I got the news that I lost my job, I immediately informed my community. My best friends, my LifeGroup leaders, my family, all of them got the news within minutes.
And all of them surrounded me with love.
All of them surrounded me with encouragement.
All of them told me that it would all be okay.
My community pointed me to Jesus, something that I am not used to seeing.
I lived a life in messes that I always felt that I needed to clean up. One's that I felt that I had to fix.
But, I can't fix this.
It is not my job to fix this.
Only Jesus can fix this.
Something beautiful happens when community rallies around you. It's like a safety net for those that are free-falling. It's like a comfortable blanket wrapping around you while you're in the cold.
As I walk through this valley, as I wade through the unknown, I know that I have my community to catch me, and my God to love and lead me.
My God is Good.
He promised good.
He turned everything around for good.
Nothing is too difficult for Him.
Nothing is impossible.
And as long as I have Jesus.
And my community.
And my friends and family.
It is well, with me.
I lost my job today.
And I'll be okay.
